Dating RP.

"I agree, Aliucon. It is nice to be here," I say, letting Aliucon bring my hand closer to him and quite surprised I sound so...calm despite the rush of emotions I feel.

I hold her hand tightly against my chest, and sigh. "I...I'm sorry. I guess I never said enough that I love you...did I?", I ask, turning all of my attention to her now.

I'm startled at the question for a second. Then, I look at Aliucon straight in the eye and say playfully, but with some sincerity, "If you never said enough that you love me, then I never said enough that I love you, too." I feel Aliucon't heart beat as I talk.

I temble a little, yet again. If her voice was going to keep like that, I am afraid I won't be able to help it but crumble with all the excitement I feel upon hearing it..."H-Hmm...don't be silly...I feel like you showed it more to me than I showed to you...". I close my eyes, yet again, as I feel Lida's hand on my chest. It was...kinda even better than I thought firstly, even. To feel the one I love to be just right there...

I feel Aliucon's heart rate speed up as he talked and slow down when he closed his eyes.
"You're silly, Aliucon," I say cheerfully. "If you feel you haven't told me that you loved me enough, then you should take solace in the fact that you have shown it rather than told it. Even though you don't say it all the time, I can practically hear you say it all the time. I would never catch up with you." I blush at the last part, realizing what I say is what I consider to be the truth. "You say it through your actions." I smile with the blush still there.

"I...hum...", I open, my eyes, not sure how to continue, but still holding Lida's hand tightly against my chest, as if I didn't want to even think of letting it go. I sigh and smile back to her. *If you say so...I'm glad to hear it...it's just that, sometimes, I'm not that sure of what I'm doing...but...", a brief pause. "But...well, be always sure that I love you." I blush upon finishing the sentence.

"Awww..." I say, blushing even more. "You know, it's funny. Nobody's ever really absolutely sure of what they're doing unless they've had lots and lots of practice. Even then, it's just muscle memory." I remember all the pieces I played in the orchestra. I was always sure of what I was doing, but it was because I had practiced a really long time. And I could tell when I screwed up and shattered my own confidence. Yet I would keep playing as if nothing happened. "But people can be sure of how they feel. I love you, too, Aliucon. And I always will."

"Heh, I can understand that...", I myself had also only felt absolutely sure after lots of practice. But, well, I couldn't be sure of something like that, maybe...
I look up. The moon had considerably changed it's position? "My, isn't it getting late? Spending time with you really makes time pass by so fast...", this time, I move noticeably closer to her and hug her, even still sit down.

I hug back, looking up at the moon.
"Wow, it has been a long time," I say, and giggle. "Time flies by when you're having fun and goes slowly when you're not. What's funny is that everyone wants it to be the other way around."

"Well, of course they want... It's not like you would want to feel like you're suffering more and enjoying yourself less! At least that's the way it is, usually..."
After untighting the embrace, I slowly move to get my grape juice bottle again by its neck and bring it closer to me.
"At least you suffered enough for a lifetime. I remember some things you told me after we met..."
I slurp the juice that was in the bottle after saying that, it had suddently given me a pain in the stomach and thirstyness.
"... But I don't like bringing painful things up. I'm just glad that... currently, you are OK."
I silence for a bit, thinking about what to say exactly, since I had mentioned it for a reason, even though it had pained me to say that.
"... To tell the truth, I feel inferior to you. Knowing what you've been through and is managing to get over of, I realize how many things I've never been through, how much I was lucky that happened when thousands of others were not, and how hopeless I would be now if something hit me. I would tilt over so easily..."
More silence.
"It's not something to help me be satisfied with myself as I am. I guess I am...still too much of a kid, wouldn't you say? Hehehe...
I smile to you, eyes closed. Of course, the smile was just a bit of an act.
"I kinda would have liked to share of your pain... Didn't want someone important to me to suffer on her own, even though we didn't even knew each other at the time..."

This is kinda entertaining btw xD;;

.•°٭blinq٭°•. wrote:This is kinda entertaining btw xD;;

(Well, if you feel entertained, I'm glad... ^^)

I find the weirdest things funny though

(True.
So what?)

Nothing D:
I just randomly showed up xD

((Well anyone can jump in whenever they want. XD The more the merrier.))

"Oh, Aliucon," I begin. "You make it sound like I'm some sort of hero or something, but really I'm also more fortunate than a lot of people I know. This whole, 'I would have liked to have shared your pain' thing...I mean, that might be what you want, but I wouldn't want you to go through everything I have. Our experiences make us who we are, and if you went through my past with me then you wouldn't be the same as you are now," I say pathetically. That sounded less corny in my head.

((Okay then! I'm jumping in then!))
"I'm here!" I announced as I jumped out of nowhere into the((wait, where the hell are you guys? Um.. let's make it a coffee shop, I like coffee)) coffee shop. I glanced at all the tables and noticed that Aliucon and Rose happened to be sitting at one. I walked over to thier table and sat down completly ruining the moment with my idiotic entrance. I sat there for a moment before I realized I had interupted them. "Oh, um... h-how are you guys?" I said to break up the akward silence.

((By the way, this date is a picnic in a field somewhere.))
"Hello, Ema," I greet cheerily. "Aliucon and I were just talking about you."

((We were having a picnic, but sure, I'll play along. XDD))
I stare at Ema when she makes her noticeable, kinda funny appearance, but not staring in an agressive way, just keeping the eye on her, until she sat down and asked how we were.
I try to forget about the previous moment and fake I wasn't discussing anything serious.
"Hey!", I say, trying to sound more happy. "What brings you here so late at night? It's pretty late already, but...here, have this cup of coffee! I know you liked it.", I add, offering her the cup I had just ordered after the first one that I slurped.

((If Ema can jump in randomly, then so can I.
So we are at a Coffee shop now, eh?))

I stroll into the Coffee shop, making far less of a noticeable entrance than Ema did.
I had only one thing on my mind: Getting my cup of Cappuccino, so I didn't really pay any mind to the others in the room as I walked silently to the counter.

((It's strange, I guess we should be at the picnic of before, it was Ema that mentioned the coffee shop randomly and I went along, huh...what do you think we should do? xD))

((*shrugs* Whatever Lida wants to do I guess....))

((Alright, we wait her answer... xD
Maybe it makes more sense if we stay on the picnic, though.))

(( Aw I just wanted to randomlly show up.. again.. in the coffee shop xD ))

((I fail so hard, I came in here and messed it all up and then forgot to reply.
..well if anyone cares, I vote coffee shop))